A Nagging Appetite

God, I want more — will I ever stop feeling like I am in want? Where should I go with all this longing? You know where I would go, but what is the good place You have set aside for me to be filled? I don’t like to count on You like this, but I’ve grown so tired of feeling unfulfilled in all that I do and seek. Where are You in all the frustration I’m feeling?

Lord, I need Your help to desire good things; to dwell in the land that You’ve placed me and feast on Your faithfulness. I can only feel empty when I stubbornly resist the joys You have set before me in this season because I set on moving ahead so I can see what’s next.

I think I don’t need to eat from Your table today if I’m more curious about what You may be serving tomorrow. But I wasn’t meant to fast until I can expect to enjoy what I really want. I was meant to sit at the feet of God with the unpretentious attitude of “feed me, Father; You know what I need.”

The Only Way

So, you just met Him and you wonder what He’s all about: Who is this God who saves people like you and me? What is He interested in and why did He choose you?

God LOVES these questions! He wants us to know Him, and know Him well — to long to understand Him and value Him with all our hearts and minds.

So, start by asking Him — pour all those things in your heart out; to Him every question, every tear, even every accusation you hold against Him are like costly offerings. Yes, all these things qualify as things to give to God. And don’t worry, even if you know that what you hold in your heart is not true and yet you believe it, He will take it all. He will test the substances and purify your heart.

The way to be closer to God is to let Him be closer to you, being confident that He did not save you to then incriminate you with the sins you let Him see, but to transform the girl or guy that still functions as a slave to these things.