I have a burden to be unburdened, Lord!

Have you ever felt like you had too much too do and you’re already impatient with yourself for what is not done? I know that the feeling is not so unusual in this crazy world of amp’ed up schedules and overburdened lives, but what I’m specifically talking about is an overburdened heart.

Can you identify with that? I know I can. It seems like my heart has been overburdened since birth. There have been so many things to contend with, so much to learn to understand. So much I’ve wanted to change and un-root from within me.

That’s a lot to have on one’s emotional to-do list. But I haven’t seen it that way; rather, I’ve considered it all to be necessary and so I’ve plunged in and tried to make a 24 hour workplace of my heart.

It will come as no surprise to you that I’m exhausted. But, to me all I can tell myself is that I can’t afford to be tired. If I slow down everything will just take longer and may, if I’m not careful, never get resolved at all.

I can’t live with that. I need to know that I’m making my way speedily along to healing. I need to know that the pain is quickly being overtaken by gain.

But while my desires for healing–like yours–are good, I think I need to pay attention for a moment to why I get derailed in this journey. I don’t think it is that I want too much. I think it is that I want too much from the wrong source. When I’m rushing along in this fierce pursuit of healing I’m not being still enough to be healed.

It’s like I think God’s forgotten that I’m broken. It is that I think He needs instruction on how to care. But isn’t this thinking pattern something that needs to be healed as well? Shouldn’t I hope for the day when I can be at ease in the knowledge that He is “it”?

I want that to be my reality. When doubts scream at me and try to tell me that I can be a better God than He, may I shut them up. May I tell them, tell Him I don’t want to be. I wasn’t made to be satisfied with such independence; rather, I was meant to be connected. Therefore, I want someone else to care for me so I can become who I was made to be.

Yes, I need lessons, Lord. So, would You help me sit and receive them?

 

Enjoy the gifts you’re given in their time

Whatever gifts from God you’ve got lined up in your life at present, know that each one is something that God in His grace has stored up for you. He knows you so well that He can and does select just the right season/occation specific gifts to scatter throughout your life.

Now more than likely you have been finding something wrong with His gifts lately. Maybe they’re not new enough, or maybe they’re just too new for you. But the likelihood of God’s gifts changing appearances is not a bad thing.

Whether or not things look a little different today, God will take you beyond the packaging to grace in its purest form. Regardless of positive or negative feelings, God is keeping you from getting bored with His gifts and He is increasing your spiritual sensitive to what He’s doing. These things are especially important in light of how incredible grace is.

What God has given you on hand today is an inheritance that needs to be exhausted now. This is all you can do in this moment — besides praying for more appreciation for grace in the days to come!