Wholeness isn’t about needing God less…

can it
that You promise to make my heart
at the same time
You give Your consent to the stirring up of
anxiety that hides beneath the surface of my tender
heart? how can You make anything better, inviting every
to get as awful as it
…is there anything about You that makes sense? your best
leaves me baffled, but healed.
isn’t about needing You less, but wanting You

What if Your love…changed my questions?

What if Your love
is not meant to be contained
in a single day,
or revealed in the answer
to a solitary prayer?
What if Your love
is bigger, deeper
than the bite-sized portions
I make of my life,
when I try to judge whether
You are good
by what I like and what I
What if my life is a whole
that was not meant to be divided
because You are most
personal to me,
when I stop trying to see You
through the details
and begin to see the themes
through You.

How can I fear what’s ahead?

You’re the life I need in every stage of life…
You’re the Master whom every season
which claims me
must obey.
How can I fear what my life
will be,
when You are the One giving
the final word
on what’s allowed
within the borders of my days,
when You are He who’s
holding back the destruction
in every pain
You’re using to expose
a new place that needs
Your touch?