Do you feel frustrated at the inadequacy of God’s provision for you today? You look around at your life and you do not see much that could be acquainted with the full, abundant life that you thought being God’s kid was supposed to be about. You’re not full of happiness or abounding in joy. Hope seems far away. You don’t know what went wrong. Jesus was supposed to make all these things in your life better.
It can hurt so much to be in this place. I bear the burden with you. God does not always live up to our expectations. In fact, sometimes, He does things that do nothing less than blow up our expectations. It can seem, at times like these, that God does not really care about us. He is not gently handling the tenderest parts of us and if anyone else treated us this way, we would by no means deem them as worthy of all our trust.
So why is God any different? Surely, He is not able to victimize us with His divine brutality and yet be free of guilt. We all know that trust is built on a person’s reputation and their actions make up that reputation. When God’s actions confuse or unsettle us, we can follow our perceptions to their logical conclusion and decide that God’s reputation is suddenly being revealed in it’s true light, which just happens to be quite negative.
But the truth is that our feelings cannot be treated by us as registered fact. Our emotional responses (or even our mental responses) to God’s actions do not decide the nature of God’s reputation. Our temptation is to give “what we know” preeminence over God’s Word, but we can’t. We must test the internal image we have of God against the One authority on God that does not change: Scripture’s revelation of His character.
To equate our feelings with truth about God is one of the most foolish things we could be guilty of. For, the real truth is that we cannot judge God or His actions without the presence of error in our calculations. We need to build our beliefs on the unfaltering foundation that is God’s perfect judgment of His own actions.
Before we jump to conclusions about what kind of motives He might have for doing very (to us) confusing things, we should pursue God with fresh abandon to discover not just why He does what He’s does, but how He intends to change our hearts through what He allows to take up residence in our lives.
The thing is that we either decide that God cares for us completely–all the way home–or we decide that He does not care about us at all and is working all things against our good. There is no middle ground, no common area where both definitions can be true. God does not work that way. And we would not want Him to if He could.