Checking up on God keeps me busy!

Do you ever feel like that: Like God is making you run around and worry because you can’t find out what He’s doing? Yeah, been there, done that. Or, should I say–if I want to be honest–I am there, doing that.

I know, it’s horrible. I wish I could say that was in the past. But it’s not quite as simple as that. I’m not that done with this. I’m still wanting to play this out. I still think it will work for me…somehow. (I don’t have an example ready for you, yet I’m still gonna stick with it.)

I know that’s so convincing. Which makes me wonder why I do stick with it. What do I think I have to gain from this? Or is it that I’m afraid I don’t know how to do anything else? I think the fear one ranks highest today. I’m afraid I don’t have any other way to respond to life but to fear. (That sounds down-right scary, doesn’t it?)

So what do you do when fear has a hold on you like this? You live like fear is a messenger, telling you where peace is not abiding in your heart. You investigate that place and ask God why He can’t commune with you there. Is it because your beliefs about Him keep Him on the outside? Is it because your beliefs about yourself are so rooted in independence that you make Him unnecessary? If so, then this is your real problem; fear is only a symptom. Therefore, treat it accordingly. Put it before God and say, “I’m feeling fear because _______.” And if you don’t know how to fill in the blank, let Him fill it in–He knows better than you about this anyway.

There, stop trying to keep up with God and instead, let Him check-up on you from time to time. Let it be a regular thing. Remind yourself that if you let Him check you out you’ll have enough on your hands that you won’t have to worry if He’s doing a good job; you’ll know He’s doing a bigger job than you could do!

4 thoughts on “Checking up on God keeps me busy!

  1. I like your post a lot, even though your radical style is not in line with most Christians. I think you should tone it down a little. By that I mean; instead of the phrase “threatening God” you could use “petition God.”

    Thanks for sharing. God bless.

    1. Hi, Noel! I’m so glad you liked my post. I also appreciate your feedback. Sometimes I do wonder if I sound a bit over the top. I know I tend towards a radical style, but I want to present the heart in unvarnished reality. I want to expose our need for God by exposing the necessity of grace to cover our interactions with Him. I want to betray the comfortable perceptions we have of ourselves. I hope to show that God is holy and we are not. And I make my appeal to the hurting, trying to point them to the one place they can find rest: Coming to a God who loves us though we so often display how little we love Him. I’m not so interested in making sure I sound like a Christian as I am about making sure that I live like one. There are plenty of times that I petition God, but I want to show that we shouldn’t run from God when we know we have nothing pretty to say to Him.

      1 Corinthians 9:19-23 has been my guideline in writing this blog:

      19 For though I am free from all men, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win the more; 20 and to the Jews I became as a Jew, that I might win Jews; to those who are under the law, as under the law, that I might win those who are under the law; 21 to those who are without law, as without law (not being without law toward God, but under law toward Christ), that I might win those who are without law; 22 to the weak I became as weak, that I might win the weak. I have become all things to all men, that I might by all means save some. 23 Now this I do for the gospel’s sake, that I may be partaker of it with you.

      I am still figuring out all that this means and what it doesn’t mean, so I would appreciate your continued feedback! Happy Palm Sunday!

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