I Feel Like Screaming, “Protect Me, Will Ya?”

Have you ever been in a situation where you wanted God to be right there and save you? Or, you expected Him to make you know that there was no danger, but instead He let you confront it face-to-face? When you were alone in the dark, He let you hear the creaks and silent whispers of the blackness all around you; He let you learn to cry out to Him for what you needed when none of the security-evidences you wanted were visible.

Perhaps, as I have, you grew angry at God for all that He hadn’t and wasn’t doing to make you feel safe. Why aren’t my feelings His highest priority? you wondered subconsciously.

When we struggle in situations like this one, it is because God knows us so well, even we find that we know Him so little. He wants to push us past our preconceived boundaries of what is good and beneficial for us; to cause us to see more of His climate, become better acquainted with His zone of activity.

We can only see so much of what delights God’s heart when we won’t let Him put us in places where those things can be center-stage. If we won’t allow God to get right in front of us in some pretty uncomfortable places, than there is really only so much physical, emotional and spiritual area that God can have in our lives.

8 thoughts on “I Feel Like Screaming, “Protect Me, Will Ya?”

    1. It is such a good showcase of my heart in these instances, I think, “I wish God didn’t know what He was doing, so I could take over.” It is when His good plans hurt that I despair of any way out of what He’s doing. Oh, to have Him change my heart to be in more agreement with His; that pain would be a gift to me, if it could be felt because of unity with Him!

      You were a catalyst to more thinking…Thanks. Still praying for you that God would lift you up after not too long.

      Why would you ever complain, O Jacob,
      or, whine, Israel, saying,
      “God has lost track of me.
      He doesn’t care what happens to me”?
      Don’t you know anything? Haven’t you been listening?
      God doesn’t come and go. God lasts.
      He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine.
      He doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath.
      And he knows everything, inside and out.
      He energizes those who get tired,
      gives fresh strength to dropouts.
      For even young people tire and drop out,
      young folk in their prime stumble and fall.
      But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.
      They spread their wings and soar like eagles,
      They run and don’t get tired,
      they walk and don’t lag behind.

      Isaiah 40:27-31


      1. I’m so glad! Is there any thing that I can be praying for you specifically? I read on your blog that things were falling into more of a routine with school and all, but what are your present challenges?

  1. I see I have a major typo in my last comment. I meant to say, thank you for this verse. 🙂 My present challenges seem to be numerous, as I’m sure everyone has their own but I would say the most pertinent right now are that I can stay positive in the midst of winter and also for my half-brother who is coming to visit me over presidents day weekend. He is agnostic and he’s going to come with me to church. He’s hasn’t been to church much and I only even met him a few years ago. Thank you ! Is there something I can pray about for you?

    1. Inquisitive, as I was praying for you today I just got the sense that while you think you have an idea of where your brother is, only God has the spiritual coordinates of his heart in hand. God will take care of your brother, and you in the process. He may not work out His plans the way you would first desire, but as He asks you to surrender those expectations and anxieties to Him, He will teach you how to love what He does simply because you love Him — even when you don’t understand it all.

      God is with you, and while He is there, He intends to build you up in faith, making your prayer,

      “This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike “What’s next, Papa?” God’s Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children. And we know we are going to get what’s coming to us—an unbelievable inheritance! We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we’re certainly going to go through the good times with him!

      Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

      God knew what he was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the lives of those who love him along the same lines as the life of his Son. The Son stands first in the line of humanity he restored. We see the original and intended shape of our lives there in him.

      So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God’s chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ’s love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture:

      They kill us in cold blood because they hate you.
      We’re sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one.
      None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.”

      Romans 8:15-17, 26-29, 31-39

  2. Hi Elaine,

    I read this on the day you posted but I didn’t comment. I’ve been drawn back here today.

    I’m going to send this link to a friend who has been asking “Why aren’t my feelings His highest priority? ” I believe she can find much here.

    Thanks for posting. Loving the scripture references!


    1. Oh, Ann, I am so grateful to God for putting you in the middle of your friend and I to link us through our questions to His grace. I pray that she is blessed, and that the Lord would awaken in her heart the testimony of these words:

      “It’s in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone.

      It’s in Christ that you, once you heard the truth and believed it (this Message of your salvation), found yourselves home free—signed, sealed, and delivered by the Holy Spirit. This signet from God is the first installment on what’s coming, a reminder that we’ll get everything God has planned for us, a praising and glorious life.That’s why, when I heard of the solid trust you have in the Master Jesus and your outpouring of love to all the followers of Jesus, I couldn’t stop thanking God for you—every time I prayed, I’d think of you and give thanks. But I do more than thank. I ask—ask the God of our Master, Jesus Christ, the God of glory—to make you intelligent and discerning in knowing him personally, your eyes focused and clear, so that you can see exactly what it is he is calling you to do, grasp the immensity of this glorious way of life he has for his followers, oh, the utter extravagance of his work in us who trust him—endless energy, boundless strength!

      All this energy issues from Christ: God raised him from death and set him on a throne in deep heaven, in charge of running the universe, everything from galaxies to governments, no name and no power exempt from his rule. And not just for the time being, but forever. He is in charge of it all, has the final word on everything. At the center of all this, Christ rules the church. The church, you see, is not peripheral to the world; the world is peripheral to the church. The church is Christ’s body, in which he speaks and acts, by which he fills everything with his presence.”

      Ephesians 1:11-23

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