I Should…(I think)

Do you ever notice that a good deal of your thoughts and actions are directed by a vague intuition that you “should”? For instance, I don’t do too well without boundaries, so I make up my own where there don’t seem to be enough. I like to be able to gauge how I am doing and where I stand — it is how I judge whether everything is right with my world or not; whether I am right or not. And, of course, the goal is always that I would be right. It is a disappointment when I am not, but also a perfect challenge to make things right.

If I am feeling like I have done something wrong, I identify a loss of personal security. I  insulate myself with my pride based on what I can do. The funny thing is, though, that I never count God in when I am working on these things. I am working on me, and I forget that God is the first One to be concerned with me.

As I’ve tried to clean myself up, I have found that living a life dominated by what I think I should do is actually recklessness. I know, that sounds ridiculous! Me taking things in hand equals recklessness? Are you kidding? Isn’t the definition of recklessness living without responsibility?

Well, yes. When I discount God, I am truly living without caution, being utterly unconcerned about the consequences of my actions (whether mental, emotional, physical or spiritual). I want to live as though God doesn’t exist and I am the “captain of my fate”; yet, according to Scripture our responsibility is not to lead our own lives, but to turn to God — a much different reality than what we would bank on.

We often make it our practice to sidestep our own role as human beings, and try to make our mark in the role of God. But what are we really looking for? Romans 3 gives us a pretty good idea. In the first 8 verses we find about as many things we seek in this life:

advantage

value

righteousness

truth

glory

good

Yet, the question must be asked, where? Where are we looking for these, and whom do we expect to deliver them to us? I am sure I would not be alone in admitting that I often bear a burden when it comes to these things. I hold it as my responsibility to add these things to myself, walking about hoping to find authentic fillers so that I can walk on without emptiness.

The problem: As I am, I have no advantage, no righteousness and no glory. And the good and truth that God has already given me I have rejected in favor of what I can achieve and encounter on my own. Yet, God insists on leading me to another, blessed way — by which He has delivered to me what I could not gain on my own. For me He has accomplished all that I could desire and more:

But in our time something new has happened. What Moses and the prophets witnessed to all those years has happened. The God-setting-things-right that we read about has become Jesus-setting-things-right for us…Since we’ve compiled this long and sorry record as sinners…and proved that we are utterly incapable of living the glorious lives God wills for us, God did it for us. Out of pure generosity he put us in right standing with himself. A pure gift. He got us out of the mess we’re in, and restored us to what he always wanted us to be. And he did it by means of Jesus Christ.

God sacrificed Jesus on the altar of the world to clear that world of sin. Having faith in him sets us in the clear. God decided on this course of action in full view of the public — to set the world in the clear with himself through the sacrifice of Jesus, finally taking care of the sins he had so patiently endured. This is not only clear, but it’s now — this is current history! God sets things right. He also makes it possible for us to live in his righteousness.

So where does that leave our proud…claims…? Canceled. Yes, canceled. What we’ve learned is this: God does not respond to what we do; we respond to what God does. We’ve finally figured it out. Our lives get in step with God and all others by letting him set the pace, not by proudly or anxiously trying to run the parade.

And where does that leave our proud…claim of having a corner on God? Also canceled. God is the God of outsider[s]…as well as insider[s]. How could it be otherwise since there is only one God? God sets right all who welcome his action and enter into it…

But by shifting our focus from what we do to what God does, don’t we cancel out all our careful keeping of the rules and the ways God commanded? Not at all, what happens, in fact, is that by putting that entire way of life in its proper place, we confirm it.

– Romans 3:21-31 (The Message)

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